一份借回来的幸福。

我可以说，我和他是不会走在一起。可是，这份借回来的幸福，我真的很珍惜。虽然只是意外的牵，可是，我已经很满足了。虽然他喜欢的不是我，可是我还是会等他。

Really Cant smile

Do i like you? I really dont know. I dont know why, maybe before that he cheated me, now, i dont dare to think about love, cause i scare... another time will be cheated. I really dont know my feeling right now, who i like, who i care... I really cant smile. As what you told me, dont think about it, it will be okay, but i really dont think so, you always left me out... If everybody tell me, i love you, i will not believe them. when i am updating my blog, i m listening wish you were here, arvil lagvine. Can i be like her, tough and dont think about it. Love = hurt. Maybe in my life, that i really dont dare to think about love, i scare it will be the ending like the last time... Can you teach me what should i do?

I dont need you in my life.

You are important to me? You care me? You love me? All this question is coming out from my brain, well... the final answer is , fuck... ass off in my life please, with you my life sucks like hell, everyday blaming myself...cause doing something stupid.... You think i m your dog, i have to listen to your instruction... can you just go home and know what is your mistake, just pretend you have no mistake, ass off pls... I am listening ,wish you were here... but at this moment, i really dont need you here with me, maybe the another him, will be better... what i can say is , bye boy! <3

Could't live without them.

You think i can love without them, the final answer i will say is not. I need them in my life, we always share things with each other. Angela, she is good in study, Michelle(my sis) she is good in study too.. for me .. aiya, my study normal only lah.... I really need them in my life, without them, my life sucks... Always love them! <3

awesome day.

Yesterday, was the awesome day.. Amanda, Angela and me , we went to Paulina's house. Her house was so big and we were so shock. Her house got swimming pool, it was so big... and her mother say the swimming pool was for the bird, what such a funny joke. :) We changed into swimming suit and we cant wait to jump into the swimming pool... after that we went for gym, her house had a gym room. After swimming , gym... muscle pain this morning, i could't go for school... we went giza, Dao for dinner, we went for bbq and the salad... We work out for 3 rounds and we eat for 5 rounds... hahahahaha, there are the best friends will be there for me when i need them... i love them <3

Sick :(

Hey guys, i am fever and flu. Now, i am off to Penang, but i will still bring my comp... hahaha, to finish my geo project... sien weih, go for trip still need to bring my comp to do project.. hahahahahah btw, happy birthday to my best friend, Tara ... and Happy Malaysia Day ! :)

I saw the real you.

yeah right, i am at Penang. Well i am a stupid fellow. Now i am blaming myself for that ' stupidness'

and i am such an idiot. FML. I can do everything for you and you say words that is like a knife poking into my heart. I know you are taken, just cant you use nicer words to tell me, do you need to use bad words such as fuck, diam 7 or more... Many people tell me that you dont worth it for me .. but i dont believe.. now, i believe that you are that kind of people. I saw the real you, the real cruel, mean you. That's enough... i know right, for you, you wont wan to choose me as a gf right... but why can you use nicer words to reject me.. and you have to say, fuck esther.. is like what on earth i did wrong.. i know, if i dont start this incident , it wont have a ending like that... i know if you dont snatch people things, you wont get hurt .. that is , the real thing. I tell you, you ruin my day. Yea right, i learn a lesson from you, thank you , i learn a fcking good lesson man, thanks man... My heart now is like.. a knife poke inside.. you pull it out again and you poke in it again... Why dont you just that you dont love me at first... why? if you tell me , i can .... fine, everything already happen, i really dont wan to see you and you also dont wan to see me right.. wish we dont see each other forever .. please......

Is so easy to fall in love...

The day before yesterday, i saw you and your friend... anyway , we did't talk at all... so far, yesterday was trial run , i went to informary cause my leg hurt... then i saw you, i don't know this is call admire or like.... anyway your leg hurt... after school your leg have recover and you can stand... i went to canteen, i see you and you look at me i look at you.... lolx

go ahead with her, bye boy

When i updating my blog, my brain is full of question marks? I dunno why you wan to do this to me, i though... love is nothing of my life... but i think , love is also one part of my life, i dunno why, you are scolding me cause i had added her, may i ask you, do you like her, do you remember, you told me... esther... esther, i love you... but i think is fake, anyway i think my whole life is been fool by you guys, boys... i think have fallen in love to you two guys, shit... wtf! i dunno why? when i updating my blog, my tears are dropping like.... i know, you have her , you gonna leave me right , your eyes are full of goodbye.. i cannot be like this, i tell myself i cannot love you, that's me, yea, go ahead with her, i will try my best to forget this love with a i love you, anyway , i will remember you in my heart forever. anyway, can i huge you before you leave, this is juz a small things i wan, can i... i wish , you cant find my blog forever, let me keep this love in my heart, nobody knows...

I wanna be myself~~

everyday at school, i m acting like a girl which look like a boy... i m so rough in school, if i see you, i will also be rough, at home, i m acting like this also, in front of you, i act like this also, i feel so ... anyway , i m too over... i wanna act back myself... i m a girl which juz need love ( relationship )...

anyway , if you come, i will be thinking, oh gosh, am i crazy like shit... fml

Juz one " I LOVE YOU "

Today, i boy which i like before told me... I LOVE YOU... i know that he is juz playin or wad? anyway i feel in my heart like, feel like wanna love him one more time... awwwww, dunno how to say this feeling.... anyway i did say him... another him~~~

Something bout love...

Forget you, this mission take time... not short time... very long time.. anyway i m tryin to do it... maybe i say, my heart now is better... i feel like my heart get relax... like a balloon release it air... so comfortable, i really like this feeling, when i m writing this blog, i m listen something about love... really like this song lyrics... wow, something bout love, yea.. maybe our story have a better start or another sad end? I really dunno, cause my life is like all about him... anyway i dont think about future, i juz enjoy the mood n0w, so relax.. my brain get relax, my brain finally release something out, i keep see-ing your picture at my friend profile... i m like feel you so cool.. all about him, so cool.... anyway i got one friend he got a wall photo, when i click inside, i still saw that you write that you love me in fb... i think i m gonna keep this feel to myself... cause this feel, i dont know how to describe, anyway i still love him... got another guy better that him, i really wan to know him...

always love you,
xoxo

That person.... never gonna leave my heart~~

Why, you just cant understand me... i dont wan anything much more, i just wan you... maybe i dunno what are you thinking in your mind.... i really cant read your mind... is so , i just dunno how to say this this feeling, when i write this , my tears like dropping down, teardrops on my phone.. i just wan to tell that please dont make fun of love... you can make fun of anything else, actually what are you thinking? you think that fooling a form 1 with love is very funny, ish, i hate it, i also dunno why i will like you, i should not , like-ing you is like damn suffering, everyday i see you, i m like, dunno give what expression to you, i think.. this is the lesson you give me, to not like a boy is this it's... you like ruin my holiday, ruin my MYE, i dont think my results will be "good" , i think my results will be "okay", cause when i see you, i go in the examination room, i m like cant concentrate on my paper... ish, what is happening to me, i never love a boy until like i m a gila person, omg, who can help me? Please , i really need your help~~

always love you,
xoxo

Oops, sorry...

Oops sorry , I didn't update my blog for a few days...

Please tell me the truth...~~

Today, i dunno you got come to school... Please tell me the truth, do you love me? Can you tell me the answer... I need to know, i dont wan to let you fool me... Shit

I love you~~

Do you remember how we first met... how you tell me , you love me in fb... i remember, but i think everything you are fooling me... is fooling me, i should wake up from dreams... wake up

Reason ~~

Today , i saw you agn... you pretend dont know me again... why you all form * like to do dis to form 1 it is... i rather you got reason... better den you are fooling me... anyway trying to forget you, wish mye faster pass... form 1 -- form * no need have lunch together anymore~~

What the hell.... Teh O

Today , my friend name kai siang spill teh o on me... feel like puching him... ISH!!! >____<

shock~~

I am so shock, already two days.... you see me you dont even say hi ... you just pretend you dont know who i am... i am so shock... If you dont love me, please dont make a joke, i really cannot take dis joke, if other joke i can , anyway love joke i can't... please tell me that you love me or not~~ better that i crazy waiting for you, or suffering here... please, tell me are you fooling me or you love me.... xoxo

meet you

Today, i saw you in school twice.. cause of exam , so we have the same break time and lunch time... and you see me... dun even say a hi or call me... you are like just annoying me... is so suffering for me.... ish, what the hell i do wrong in my whole life ever... lovin you~~ shit... hate it.... can you help me to stop meeting you~~ anyway you are havin a *** exam dis year... anyway gambateh... always be by yourside ... xoxo

I rather become a play girl

I rather become a play girl... Better suffering here for lovin you this stupid reason.... Everyday i think about you... Is like a sick... Only u can cure this sick... Omg, i think you are killing me by this... You make me suffer .... Suffer like hell, you are like hurting me
Damn pain.... I think in your whole life you dont know how to write pain dis word... Anyway i think i rather become a playgirl rather suffering lovin you... <3

Im such a Stupid girl~~

I fall in love with a guy... he is elder then me... anyway we have a happy start and a sad ending ... omg... i know that he wont love me forever in his life... he wont... >,<